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            Nothing could have prepared me for what was coming straight ahead. This was a true test of strength and courage- not just within me, but towards others as well. I had excelled in this area plenty of times... but nowhere near this magnitude. My father had always told me that anyone can give up without a second thought, but that real strength came from holding on when others would fall apart. As I looked through the window to Dylan's room, I realized I was testing myself.

            It was hard for me to grasp the concept that he was holding strong through all of this. If that was me in there, I’d no doubt be throwing a tantrum, screaming for someone to help me change my mind. He looked so fragile lying on the bed, yet confident everything would work out fine. I couldn’t bear to look at him for more than five seconds, but at the same time was too entranced to look away from his angelic face.

            “Dylan’s nurse is ready to move him. Would you like to go sit down?” Mrs. Kirsch asked me. I hadn’t realized she was standing behind me the whole time, watching her son like I was. Maybe I was just overreacting; Mrs. Kirsch looked perfectly at ease as well. Or perhaps she was just good at hiding her emotions.

            I nodded, and she wrapped her arm around my waist and led us to the waiting room. Whether she did this to provide comfort to me, or because my traiter-tears had scared her into thinking I’d pass out any second, it felt nice. I didn’t care if the other attendees saw my wrecked face, because maybe then they would realize just how much I cared for him, and they wouldn’t screw anything up. I looked back over my shoulder for a last-minute glance at Dylan before I turned the corner, the wall blocking my vision.

            God, I prayed silently, please keep him safe.



Oh yeah, I finally wrote something. :] Let me know what you think!

"Number one on my Christmas list
It isn't what you think
No fancy car or designer clothes
To make me look unique

What I want and what I need
They're similar things
So please, Santa, hear me tonight
And please do bring

Happiness
To my little life
I don't know how long 
I'm guaranteed to live
Please lift me
From this small room
Put a smile on my face
And a story to give

So please, Santa
Don't forget me

I'm lying here on this bed
Feeling weak and hopeless
While men are fighting overseas
It's becoming a mess

The world is turning upside down
There's nothing I can do now
So please, Santa, hear me tonight
We need you to bring, somehow

Peace
To spread through this world
People are going crazy
No one knows that it's not right to fight
Help us through
These toughest times
When nothing seems to be going well
And people are dying left and right

So please, Santa
Don't forget me

My parents promised me 
That I'd change the world someday
But they're no longer here
And I hope I'm not too late

There's still work that needs done
And places less than okay
We're in need of a desperate change
So I just gotta say

Santa, please bring love
To every soul
Too many families are being torn apart
And we all just need to find 
A heart to trust
And a hand to hold
To get through these tough times
I don't want to feel left behind

So number one on my list
It's not what you'll ask for
It's something we all need
But something I need more

So please, Santa
Don't forget me"



^^ Ah, yes, finally a song.
It's been 43623 years since I've written one.
Anywhooo, the end sort of sounds selfish, unless you know what the story was. It's in a girl's perspective, who is now in the hospital. Her parents died in a car crash, and she has serious injuries. The doctor's aren't sure if she'll make it, and it's soon Christmas.
What do you think?
I'd like feedback- you don't have to respond on here, you can tell me anywhere.
Thanks!
<3

I've been thinking...
I started writing chapter one, some of which I shared with Caroline. What I showed her, I'll probably change though. HAHA :]
Anyways. Tonight while I was waiting for Meredith to pick me up, I started on a character map. I think this is actually going to help me out more. As I was filling in stuff about each character, I got more and more ideas of where to take my story.
Also.
I don't think I'll be posting each chapter up here. 1, because I think that's stupid, if I want to wait for the finished project. And 2, because I write slow. Ha. Instead, I think I'll update every month, and not post everything I have written; instead, take a small chunk of what I wrote, post it, and get feedback.
Do you like?
Let me know :]

Hello. :]
Yes, I'm restarting. Again.
I've thought about this for awhile, and I think what I've decided is that I'll use bits and pieces of what I had already written to get my new story started. And then I'll go from there. :]

Hopefully I will have chapter one up real soon, so everyone can get back to me on what they think.
Nice comments, please. Don't hate on me. ;]